Mitch,
You know how much I hate snakes! And yet, I keep running into them lately on my walks with Leo.
Every time in my life when I have felt overwhelmed or scared, snakes have come into my life, whether that be in my dreams or actually seeing them.
Lord knows, I didn’t need to actually SEE the snakes…
this time around to tell me I am afraid of what the future holds, or that I am in unknown territory. But since I was seeing them so much, I decided I should Google what else this means.
Seeing snakes can signal of a time of transition, growth, and often an abundant amount of knowledge and cosmic wisdom to help you along your path. Well, no Schmidt, Sherlock! We feel like we are on such a roller coaster with all the transition we have been going through: not only in your health and the test results each time, but also moving to a different home and all the renovations that took place to make it ours. All the powerful lessons we are learning in this process does not require a snake in my path to remind me of them. I feel like these lessons are in my face as it is. The lessons and changes are coming so fast I can barely wrap my head around the new information before we are slapped with some more unwelcome knowledge.
I did find out a positive point, however.
Snakes show up as a sign to assure you that you have chosen the right path. When we have been revisiting where we should get treatment, and if the decisions we have made and are making are the correct ones, this is showing us we have. I just wish it could be something cute, like a bunny, not a snake. Maybe I would not pause to investigate it more, if it were an animal I was not afraid of.
But wait, I DID! Bunnies were also along our path daily. The parallels of seeing a snake and a rabbit have an interesting meaning. Basically, it is making sure you listen to and nurture your instincts when making decisions when uncertain about the steps to take. Next summer, just bring on the bunnies. NO MORE SNAKES!
We have many fears right now,
but we also have so much to be grateful for. I, for one, am going to be grateful for everyday I have left to be with you, whether that is five years or thirty-five years.
With all my love –
Nicole
PS This letter was written prior to Mitch’s passing.
I so love your blog. Thank you for continuing to share your insight, grace and love with us.
Luann,
Aww, thank you! I am grateful you are reading the letters. I have many more yet to be published. haha Writing them helps me in my grief.
Hugs,
Nicole
Nicole, you should write a book. I would definitely buy it. You have been strong throughout the time of Mitchs cancer journey.
Your writing has made me laugh and cry. I just want to say thank you for sharing all you have.
Mary,
Thank you! I have achieved what other authors would like there readers to do when immersed in their written words- laugh and cry. Your wish is my command. haha I am in the process of writing a book. That will take some time to complete as I can only do little bits at a time. It is emotionally draining. On the outside I must look strong because many people say I am strong but on the inside I feel like a wimp. Thank you for continuing to read what I have to share.
Hugs,
Nicole